Journal Entry

June 6,2022

Grief

Do you know what it’s like to have a scream trapped inside you? It’s invisible to the outside world. The scream catches in your throat. It bounces back around inside your hollow and heavy chest. Every cell in your whole body screams and cries out. Your bones ache. Like literally. Can you imagine? No one can see or know your pain.

My brain hurts. Since you left me my mind has constantly been of you. Not even when I sleep do I get a break. My dreams or I guess nightmares are of this life I have now. After you. No reprieve for my weary mind. I’m exhausted. I’m homesick for a home I can never make it back to again. I can’t “right” this world. And so I scream. Inside. Silently and painfully.

-Truman’s mom 💙💞💙